reasons why i dont wana get old!

mother of all mood swings

while ago a colleague of mine told me that he’s not in the mood.

somehow, it reminded me of my ex.

in one of those not-exactly-arguments that we had, i remember him calling me the mother lang magiba ng nararamdaman. he promised me that he will be going to baguio but he dint because he was so engrossed playing DOTA with his friends. he was supposed to leave for baguio at 1am. i called him, he decided to move it to 3am, then to 5am. after a few more hours and close to having a carpal tunnel syndrome, they decided to stop playing at 7am. he texted me after that saying he’s tired. told him he can rest, he can take al the fuckin time to rest. he even had the nerve to tell me im not even concerned about him after a whole night of playing DOTA. shant i have the reason to get mad and, fine, be the mother of all mood swings? newsflash! that wasnt a mood swing! its called sarcasm/anger/fury/annoyance! of all mood swings. i dint know how to react. hell! hindi naman ako sira ulo para bigla na

*sigh*  

its guess theyre right. if someone’s not worth it today, he wont be in 10 years.

growing old is mandatory, its growing up thats optional. 

hell.

argh im jealous.. stop it.

Legalizing Pedophilia

I was shocked by what i saw on tv the other day. TV patrol reported about a certain group in netherlands proposing that pedophilia be legal. they were proposing that the age as to teens are allowed for sexual relations should be lowered down frmo 16 to 12.

i tried searching online and this is what i found: 
Although sex offenders who prey on children are demonized by society, psychiatrists who treat them say up to 3% of Canadians are sexually drawn to children.

    However, most of these pedophiles do not act on their sexual fantasies. Those who do mostly engage in exhibitionism, masturbation or gentle fondling of the child.

    “Fortunately, the individuals who have pedophilia … that are likely to act out and seriously harm a child are very rare,” said John Bradford, clinical director of forensic psychiatry and the sexual behaviours clinic at the Royal Ottawa Hospital.

    Dr. Bradford published a study several years ago in the American Journal of Psychiatry that found only 28 patients in a database of 2,800 known pedophiles in Canada had committed acts of sexually motivated homicide or attempted homicide over a 20-year period.

    “In fact, in statistical terms, if you look at children that are killed, a parent is more likely to kill a child than a pedophile is going to kill a child,” said Dr. Bradford, who has assessed such notorious sexual offenders as Paul Bernardo.

    Although the cause of pedophilia is unknown, studies show about 35% of pedophiles were sexually molested as children.

    “I’m convinced there’s a biological component to it,” Dr. Bradford said….

Got that?

i feel like fainting.

here’s another one i found:
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Googlism for: mushy

Googlism.com will find out what Google thinks of you, your friends or anything! Search for your name here or for a good laugh check out some of the popular Googlisms below. 

mushy is smarter than you (i swear i found this on googlism, i dint add it myself.. honest! ;P)
mushy is there for sure (but of course)
mushy is my youngest cat
mushy is how the tit man likes em tit man metro (whoa! i dont like how that sounds hhmm)
mushy is how the tit man likes ‘em charts
mushy is here to stay
mushy is halloween
mushy is in hot seat
mushy is cute ^_
mushy is smarter than ullu haq
mushy is no arafart
mushy is a bit unfair (am not!)
mushy is in position to understand and do what india expects out of him? it is very clear (india? eeek)
mushy is painfully reminded that his wife jean is in the hospital (wow. im a married lesbian)
mushy is that he is an innovative guy who is open to new ideas (im am open to new ideas but im not a guy)
mushy is more difficult than it sounds
mushy is that frontline ally
mushy is something the asylum street spankers are emphatically not
mushy is a peacenik
mushy is a courageous friend of the us in the fight against terrorism (saving the world one terrorist at a time..)
mushy is a bad poster (a what?)
mushy is surprised
mushy is the last thing on our minds
mushy is on them that rear him from expiration to expiration
mushy is out
mushy is unlikely to erupt and may influence the lower
mushy is not even considered for a second choice now despite being
mushy is pleasant
mushy is one of the first tests of the cook’s skill
mushy is a windoze user
mushy is a relative term
mushy is good
mushy is a soldier
mushy is not so sentimental
mushy is that?
mushy is on the radio is usually unbelievable
mushy is to whisper
mushy is the best emergency food for most songbirds
mushy is 2
mushy is a teddy rex
mushy is a little tricky
mushy is smart enough to see
mushy is tiptupt by toft taft
mushy is a good thing
mushy is quite frozen and that is good
mushy is to make it specific
mushy is better than crunchy when
mushy is in a relationship; after all i have been single for almost 22 years
mushy is too much for me
mushy is 14 yrs old and checkers is 8yrs old
mushy is survived by her husband
mushy is very ardent but at the same time quite bold too when he announced strict measures against terrorist groups
mushy is bad

got the idea of googlism from jigs

the rule of four

Four Jobs I have had in my life:
1. teacher / instructor (caregiver, college, nursery, end grade)
2. general manager for a travel & consultancy firm
3. tech support agent
4. product specialist / 1st level sup

Four movies I would watch over and over:
1. a knight’s tale
2. troy
3. memoirs of a geisha
4. charlie’s angels 2

Four places I have lived:
1. blissful baguio city
2. pangasinan, my hometown
3. at my mom’s, chicago
4. freemont, ca, at my grandma’s

Four TV shows I love to watch:
1. Sex and the City
2. csi
3. friends
4. only you (the koreanovela )

Four places I have been on vacation:
1. my mom’s, chicago
2. my grandma’s, freemont, ca
3. my uncle’s, michigan
4. our haunted house at ilocos lol

Four web sites I visit daily:
1. yahoo mail
2. google mail
3. my blog
4. company email

Four of my favorite foods:
1. anything pansit
2. anything chicken
3. sinigang
4. pasta

Four places I would rather be right now:
1.- creepy castles in england
2.- 4 seasons, bali, indonesia
3.- with my mom
4.- with my lola

yup. youve guessed it right. im freakin bored  

how sinful are you?

How Sinful Are You?

What Gender Is Your Brain?

Your Brain is 80% Female, 20% Male

Your brain leans female.  You think with your heart, not your head Sweet and considerate, you are a giver but you’re tough enough not to let anyone take advantage of you!

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How quirky are you?

So How Quirky Are You?

whats a guy to do?

FIVE FACTOR PERSONALITY TEST

Your Five Factor Personality Profile

Extroversion: You have medium extroversion. You’re not the life of the party, but you do show up for the party. Sometimes you are full of energy and open to new social experiences. But you also need to hibernate and enjoy your “down time.” Conscientiousness: You have medium conscientiousness. You’re generally good at balancing work and play. When you need to buckle down, you can usually get tasks done. But you’ve been known to goof off when you know you can get away with it. Agreeableness: You have medium agreeableness. You’re generally a friendly and trusting person. But you also have a healthy dose of cynicism. You get along well with others, as long as they play fair. Neuroticism: You have medium neuroticism. You’re generally cool and collected, but sometimes you do panic. Little worries or problems can consume you, draining your energy. Your life is pretty smooth, but there’s a few emotional bumps you’d like to get rid of. Openness to experience: Your openness to new experiences is high. In life, you tend to be an early adopter of all new things and ideas. You’ll try almost anything interesting, and you’re constantly pushing your own limits. A great connoisseir of art and beauty, you can find the positive side of almost anything.

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i dont like you!

sigh

i saw my crushie today. he had a haircut!

he looked good in his business getup and his looney toon tie.

i really dont like him, you know.

i mean i never really saw him as the crush material.

were not friends, just acquaintances.

i would pass by his station and i cant help giggle.

yes he’s the guy in my dream.

after what happened i cant seem to get him off my mind.

sometimes i catch myself glancing at his station.

hoping to find him there.

hoping that he’s not talking to a gurl. 

i like looking at him.

but i know im not inlove with him.

i can stilll hear his voice in my mind.

argh. i hate this feeling.

im giving you 2 weeks okay?

by that time..

i shouldnt think of you anymore. 

a matter of wanting

got this from here.. it rocks!!

so am posting it here.

it was written by alt164 

Obviously, you like him, and obviously he knows. And that’s practically why it never worked for you two. Then you started liking him. Of course, everybody likes him. And of course, he likes you too, maybe only because he thinks you like him but I guess it doesn’t matter as much to you as it does to me.

Not as obvious as I’d want it to be, I like you. A lot. More than I imagined I would, more than I cared to think I could like someone right now. Not as obvious as I’d want it to be, I want you to want me to like you as much as I want you to like me. I want you to want to spend lazy days with me, hot summer days at the pool, rainy days on the phone, and sucky ass days fighting over lame crap. I want you to want me to want to fight over the you’re skimpy shirt wearing, to want me to want to hold your hands in front of everybody, to want me to want to make decisions no matter how big or small with you.
 
But most of all, I want you to want me to want to take the risk, to jump off this cliff, to disregard friendships, to be selfish, which in this case, my-self-ish and your-self-ish. Because I will.

I want you to want me to want to go and get you and keep you. Because I do.

i juz utterly love it  

if there’s a will, there’s a way!

few weeks ago i got me a new phone.. i was looking fer something with big space, high resolution camera, radio & mp3 player. the sony ericsson w550i was perfect fer me and my budget. i immediately attempted to configure the mms & gprs. mms was working great but i cant seem to get the wap working. i called globe customer service and the gurl told me that she doesnt have the settings of my phone in her data base yet so she instructed me to text the configurations again. i told her that i did that already and she insisted that i wait for the settings to arrive. naturally they did but it STILL was not working. so i went to the sony ericsson site and it wasnt any help either. got the same settings, wap still wasnt working.

i was in manila at that time so i went to globe at sm centerpoint and the lady there was very helpful. she knew that i was frustrated already so she suggested that she do it all by herself, i gave her my phone and miraculously, it worked! at that time i was able to surf thru wap. 2 weeks after that though it wasnt working again. i dint make any changes, thats for sure, i dont know how to configure that in the first place. i badly need my phone settings to be configured since i use it to check on my fave movie scheds, my yahoo mail & messenger when im away from my pc. yup. so trivial i know. , call me vain if u want, i dont really care. so i decided to go back to globe, this time at sm baguio. i dint have to wait long, thank God. however the guy there doesnt seem to know any extended support. he was letting me download the settings again thru text even if i have told him already that i have done that for the nth time. but then again since i badly wanted my phone to be fixed, i complied. as usual, it dint work. i was running out of time since i needed to go to work in 30 mins. so i asked him to manually configure my phone instead. he discouraged it since he said i would still be waiting for a few mins, which i dint exactly have the luxury of. just the same, i told him i was willing to wait. he then asked for my email address because he was going to send there the steps of manually configuring the phone. i asked him to do it for me instead but he said HE DINT KNOW HOW!

hell! what is the globe center for then? if not to give extended support for their subscribers? i asked for his supervisor and he told me that he wasnt in because it was a weekend. he advised me to go back on monday. i asked him to give me someone else who can help me and he said that they all have the same training. 

i couldnt help it anymore, i was going to burst. i was on my way out. i passed by one of the tech guys and i told asked him bitterly:

“are you stupid as the guy over there? he needs to be fired.”

and he just gave me a blank look.

i was furious until i reached the office. i searched for the globe website for support and thank God there were detailed instructions there. everything seems to be correct except for one minor(?) thing, the IP address the phone had was 203.177.042.214 when it should be .42 only. i removed the 0 and voila! it worked! whew ! 

if theres a will, theres a way  

life is too short

for the past 3 weeks, my shift has always ended at 4am. since most of the time, i was always feeing so tired and sleepy, i made our sleeping quarters a refuge, regardless of all the ghost stories and robberies ive heard. however, today at about 6am, i was awakened by the cries of one of the gurls about to leave for her day shift. what happened was one of the gurls sleeping there was having a seizure! she said she dint know what to do so she woke me up.. im no expert on first aid either so i decided to call for help.. just outside the sleeping quarters was the smoking area, i asked if there was anyone who could help, and all i got were stares. i was going to dash to the clinic but since i was rushing to go out, i forgot my swipe card. i banged the door. i told the guard that they have to radio the clinic coz there was a gurl who was having a seizure.

then the guard said..”ano po un maam? hindi ko po alam un. yun ba yung nanggugupit?” 

i dint know how to react.

i told the guard: “yung babae sa sleeping quarters inaatake ng epilepsy! “

all he had to say was “epilepsy?”

thank God another guard arrived! i told him about the gurl having the seizure, he radioed the clinic then he ran to the sleeping quarters for whatever help he can give. a few seconds after that the nurse came and another guard came with a wheelchair.

just last night another gurl also had a seizure while being tested on the phone by one american contemporaries in new york. she was rushed to the hospital.. dead on arrival.

i was supposed to sleep until 9am, in that way id go straight to the mall. but who else can sleep after that? i felt guilty coz i wasnt able to help the gurl first hand.

i wonder if her life flashed before her eyes? but then again.. she was sleeping when she had the seizure.

this was the first time that i ever encountered anything as emotionally loaded as this. usually im like the people i saw at the smoking area, i just stare.. apathetic of the people around me. 

sometimes life gets to us by hitting us hard on the head. well im wide awake now. and that willl be the last time im sleeping at the sleeping quarters.

kubo rules

its the darnest thing

3 nights back i had a weird dream.. i was with my friend fe and this guy we know. all of a sudden we were being attacked by aliens with spaceships hurling fireballs at anything in sight. then i lost sight of fe and it was only the two of us running for safety. everything was a disaster. we both tried calling home, but we cant reach anyone. then we saw some guy who told us that our families have died and that there were only a few of us around..

baguio was in shambles.. since we were afraid of any of those buildings toppling over us, we decided that it would be better going to the lowlands.. prefereably la union since it was closer.. we just walked and walked.. there were a few people following us but we dint really mind since we were also following other people.. later on we were nabbed by we dont know who and when we woke up we were at the basement of this building and there were people around and they were calling me reyna.. and they were calling my guy friend sir.. . ala 4400.. lol

i know, i know.. could it get any weirder? we were tasked (daw) to lead the people left.. miraculously, the building that we were on used to be a department store, so we had all our supplies there. we had everything that we need. we even had soldiers who would protect us with their lives.

what irks me is that im not even close with that guy i dreamt of. and now, everytime i see him, i cant help but giggle like a school girl because i remember my dreamof him. now i think im beginning to like him! eep! a while ago i passed by and i was smirking again.. and he asked me why i was grinning.. aaak! help!

**sigh** cant wait to go back to sleep again.. hihi

sleeping positions

hhmm.. old couple sleeping style and woman depend’s on man sleeping style..
i do not depend on him..  i resent that! enough already..
wala na nga eh.. adding insult to injury..

really random thoughs

we were so helplessly falling..

when did we start drowning in our.. own tangled web of dreams?

and now times are changing right before our eyes.

its hard to tell if time was ever by your side.

all i can do now is cry..

well what am i supposed to do?

i guess this is…i guess this is letting go

cant i just hit rewind? replay the time fly by

just for one more day of being there with you.

did you really think youre the only one who could ever fall in love?

is this really what you were always dreaming of?

you danced circles in my heart as i layed awake sleeping

you sugar coated everything,

you watched me while i was dreaming

now heaven is a living HELL, i know the angels all to well

maybe it was all just a waste of time; or was it?

i feel a shortness of breathing, did my heart stop beating?

maybe its all in my mind

please wake me up from this night mare.

i open my eyes but you arent there.

you could have atleast said goodbye…

and i guess..this…i guess this is letting go..

new movies to look forward to