life is too short

for the past 3 weeks, my shift has always ended at 4am. since most of the time, i was always feeing so tired and sleepy, i made our sleeping quarters a refuge, regardless of all the ghost stories and robberies ive heard. however, today at about 6am, i was awakened by the cries of one of the gurls about to leave for her day shift. what happened was one of the gurls sleeping there was having a seizure! she said she dint know what to do so she woke me up.. im no expert on first aid either so i decided to call for help.. just outside the sleeping quarters was the smoking area, i asked if there was anyone who could help, and all i got were stares. i was going to dash to the clinic but since i was rushing to go out, i forgot my swipe card. i banged the door. i told the guard that they have to radio the clinic coz there was a gurl who was having a seizure.

then the guard said..”ano po un maam? hindi ko po alam un. yun ba yung nanggugupit?” 

i dint know how to react.

i told the guard: “yung babae sa sleeping quarters inaatake ng epilepsy! “

all he had to say was “epilepsy?”

thank God another guard arrived! i told him about the gurl having the seizure, he radioed the clinic then he ran to the sleeping quarters for whatever help he can give. a few seconds after that the nurse came and another guard came with a wheelchair.

just last night another gurl also had a seizure while being tested on the phone by one american contemporaries in new york. she was rushed to the hospital.. dead on arrival.

i was supposed to sleep until 9am, in that way id go straight to the mall. but who else can sleep after that? i felt guilty coz i wasnt able to help the gurl first hand.

i wonder if her life flashed before her eyes? but then again.. she was sleeping when she had the seizure.

this was the first time that i ever encountered anything as emotionally loaded as this. usually im like the people i saw at the smoking area, i just stare.. apathetic of the people around me. 

sometimes life gets to us by hitting us hard on the head. well im wide awake now. and that willl be the last time im sleeping at the sleeping quarters.