Letting You Go..

is to know such pain,

it’s jagged edges tearing into my soul.

As a stake from the garden tears into the warm, dark earth.

is to know all the while that never again will I fit myself,

warm with sleep, against your solid back.
Nor hear your steady breathing.

Or feel the beating of your heart.

is to be aware in every moment of every day

that my dreams, my future; once tied with silken ribbons to yours,

will never come to be.

And the mornings that were once so silent and hopeful,

while we were gazing at the stars and so gently awaiting forever

those are now but small pieces of my past.

Letting You Go..

is to see your heart like a tight fist of anger

and your dry eyes betraying nothing of you.

I cry for both of us, my love, i fear you will not.

is to know that I’ve lost my place on this earth.

My station. My heart’s home.

I will wander, forever a nomad.

Alone and afraid.

And in my troubled dreams

I will watch you leave, again and again.

For the rest of my days.

Thinking of what might have been.